lol yeah, that was a bad time. she wasnt down for any girl to talk to me ever
The Relationship Thread
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So I'm stuck in the middle of two girls right now. I only have time for 1 and I need to pick. So lets vote?
#1
Year older than me
Manager at the movie theater
Goes the same college as me
Mormon but with a wild side
Pretty damn smart
Easy going
#2
Same age as me
Works at baskin robins
Senior in highschool
Dtf. And wants to bad.
Doesn't come off as the smartest
Drama
Both have awesome personalities and both are country girls, not to mention freakin hot. Whatever one you guys pick I'll put a pic up.
#1
Year older than me
Manager at the movie theater
Goes the same college as me
Mormon but with a wild side
Pretty damn smart
Easy going
#2
Same age as me
Works at baskin robins
Senior in highschool
Dtf. And wants to bad.
Doesn't come off as the smartest
Drama
Both have awesome personalities and both are country girls, not to mention freakin hot. Whatever one you guys pick I'll put a pic up.
seems pretty easy, number 1. dumb and drama was a no go
so yah. found this so ill post my problems here. i dont want charity,or to be judged i just want a place to speak my mind, i dont want any smart ass comments so please keep em to your self.
So ya, most know i found out my wife was kinda cheating, i found her phone and she was texting guys in non friend way, we have talked and she was up front and legit. Its cause i dont show her affection. Is this truth? yeah it is , why i have no clue? i feel like i try but my affection comes out in different ways than normal people.I make jokes. slap asses. kid around. im basically a 12 year old in a 30 year olds body.
i started to realize today i have problems, major problems with my self that iv never noticed till she pointed them out. My mind races, i cant focus , i dont listen, i forget things . im f***ing sad sometimes, other times im beyond excited. its like a f***ing roller coaster, iv always had issues with this kinda stuff, but i thought everyone did, so i blew it off and never thought about it,and blame it on add.
it got alot worse when i walked into my dad saying he wanted to divorce my mom and was cheating on her and walked out on her (me age 26) it hit me hard, and i built up a lot of f***ing anger, hatred , and just down right evil s*** inside me. i just started talking to the man again, but deep down i f***ing hate him.
most people know my mom passed away right before christmas. that night i had a f***ing breakdown in my car. i cryed, i laughed, i was freaking out, i was pissed, then super sad, then zombie. My mom was the only person who understood me, she could tell what was wrong with out saying a word to her. now shes gone and i feel alone.
My wife is caught in the middle of this personal battle thats been brewing inside me since it really got bad when they divroced, but when she come along i put a smile on bottled that s*** up and just kept it deep down. Iv neglected to show her attention and i realize that now thats it almost to late to matter.
anyways i come to the conclusion that i need help, mental help, something is off, wrong , f***ed up, broken. something. cause im not who i once was, im like a f***ing shell . i put on my happy face and leave the house while s*** eats me up on the inside, i dont know if im just f***ing crazy, depressed , bipolar or what. but i made a drs appt for friday to see whats goin on. i have to get better before i lose everything and anything that means something to me... i feel like my head is a raceway and its none stop. sometimes i cant even carry on a conversation without forgetting what im even talking about and jumping to something else. i dont enjoy anything, i get new cars cause it makes me happy then when the fun wears off i get rid of them. and thats with most everything i start. great ideas , but never finish .i just feel like my mind is a f***ing haze.
anyways. yah. maybe the wrong place to post this? i dont know. but yah ...
So ya, most know i found out my wife was kinda cheating, i found her phone and she was texting guys in non friend way, we have talked and she was up front and legit. Its cause i dont show her affection. Is this truth? yeah it is , why i have no clue? i feel like i try but my affection comes out in different ways than normal people.I make jokes. slap asses. kid around. im basically a 12 year old in a 30 year olds body.
i started to realize today i have problems, major problems with my self that iv never noticed till she pointed them out. My mind races, i cant focus , i dont listen, i forget things . im f***ing sad sometimes, other times im beyond excited. its like a f***ing roller coaster, iv always had issues with this kinda stuff, but i thought everyone did, so i blew it off and never thought about it,and blame it on add.
it got alot worse when i walked into my dad saying he wanted to divorce my mom and was cheating on her and walked out on her (me age 26) it hit me hard, and i built up a lot of f***ing anger, hatred , and just down right evil s*** inside me. i just started talking to the man again, but deep down i f***ing hate him.
most people know my mom passed away right before christmas. that night i had a f***ing breakdown in my car. i cryed, i laughed, i was freaking out, i was pissed, then super sad, then zombie. My mom was the only person who understood me, she could tell what was wrong with out saying a word to her. now shes gone and i feel alone.
My wife is caught in the middle of this personal battle thats been brewing inside me since it really got bad when they divroced, but when she come along i put a smile on bottled that s*** up and just kept it deep down. Iv neglected to show her attention and i realize that now thats it almost to late to matter.
anyways i come to the conclusion that i need help, mental help, something is off, wrong , f***ed up, broken. something. cause im not who i once was, im like a f***ing shell . i put on my happy face and leave the house while s*** eats me up on the inside, i dont know if im just f***ing crazy, depressed , bipolar or what. but i made a drs appt for friday to see whats goin on. i have to get better before i lose everything and anything that means something to me... i feel like my head is a raceway and its none stop. sometimes i cant even carry on a conversation without forgetting what im even talking about and jumping to something else. i dont enjoy anything, i get new cars cause it makes me happy then when the fun wears off i get rid of them. and thats with most everything i start. great ideas , but never finish .i just feel like my mind is a f***ing haze.
anyways. yah. maybe the wrong place to post this? i dont know. but yah ...
I know how you feel Gary. Obviously not to that extent because I haven't had things that bad happen to me, but I went through it too.
You do need to talk to someone. You need to let it out. Because like you said, it eats you up inside and you become hollow. You don't care about a whole lot. You become distant and aren't yourself. But you do as you're expected to, which is put a smile on your face and do your job. I know this feeling all too well. This was when I was dating my last boyfriend, who I realized later was somewhat abusive and basically just ruined the person I was.
But nevermind that. The best thing for you to do is just talk. Let it out. And honestly, when I was in that bad relationship I saw a therapist for a while. It helped some because she helped me organize my head. I felt like my brain was moving a million miles an hour and I couldn't stop it. And just having a shoulder to cry on sometimes (just don't be a whiner all the time) really really helps. I still have a problem with holding things in, and my boyfriend sees it and makes me let it out. And it feels so much better when you do.
I don't know if that helps, but you're not crazy man. This feeling happens more than you think. Stay strong.
You do need to talk to someone. You need to let it out. Because like you said, it eats you up inside and you become hollow. You don't care about a whole lot. You become distant and aren't yourself. But you do as you're expected to, which is put a smile on your face and do your job. I know this feeling all too well. This was when I was dating my last boyfriend, who I realized later was somewhat abusive and basically just ruined the person I was.
But nevermind that. The best thing for you to do is just talk. Let it out. And honestly, when I was in that bad relationship I saw a therapist for a while. It helped some because she helped me organize my head. I felt like my brain was moving a million miles an hour and I couldn't stop it. And just having a shoulder to cry on sometimes (just don't be a whiner all the time) really really helps. I still have a problem with holding things in, and my boyfriend sees it and makes me let it out. And it feels so much better when you do.
I don't know if that helps, but you're not crazy man. This feeling happens more than you think. Stay strong.
Id do him...I heard stories from Kelly about her
Alright, here's another shot at the picture Tokyo. I'm pretty sure he's drunk here but whatevs. He's still f**king adorable.
Holy s***!! The attachment function works on this computer!! No more long URLs
And who the f**k is zach efron?
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Gary - bold move making an appointment with a doctor. Step one is admitting you have an issue and it's awesome that you see that you do and you're seeking help. I hoe things work out for you. Just know, even though we're bunch of noobs and morons on here, we're still here for support 
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And Chris, Greg looks almost exactly like him
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.I want Zac's hair. I f**king love his hair.Isn't he handsome?! I can't keep my hands off him.
Here's Zac
And Chris, Greg looks almost exactly like him
.Greg if you look like that fag im never talking to you again...
What ever happened to muscular tough guys being sexy?
What ever happened to muscular tough guys being sexy?
I like lean, toned guys
wanna put your hands on me?Isn't he handsome?! I can't keep my hands off him.
Here's Zac
i am the straight version thoughI want Zac's hair. I f***ing love his hair.
And Chris, Greg looks almost exactly like him
lol i dont look exactly like him, and im not a fag. you know you like talking to me though.....
I like lean, toned guys
You're cute. I'd do youwanna put your hands on me?
i am the straight version though
lol i dont look exactly like him, and im not a fag. you know you like talking to me though.....
Depends on how muscular the guy is. We talking veins-ready-to-jump-ship-on-steroids look? Or just bigger toned guys?
To me, this would be an ideal body I'd want:
I have the body, I just need to work out and tone up. Oh and grow another foot.
We can no longer be friends. Ryan Reynolds is a stud and I want to have his babies.
Well that puts me out of the question. Im bigger than that
ok, plane ticket is ordered. see you this weekendYou're cute. I'd do you
