I merged your last 5 posts into one, as it shouldve been done. Please avoid unnecessary multiple posts in the future.
With that handled, you shouldnt put out a want ad for someone to look up to. Research through previous builds, find some you like, read through their posts and build process too see if they motivate & educate you, then maybe send them a private message to attempt building a rapport. You may find yourself following multiple members who collectively teach you plenty.
Otherwise, you risk getting an egomaniacal jerk, who thinks too highly of themselves and never admits their faults, to lead you down a negative path while abusing your naiveness just to build up their flawed ego. Thats my personal opinion.